Sometimes, live can be happy and sad, it is just the method on how you look at things.

Sometimes, I can choose to live happily or I can also choose to be living sadly.

Sometimes, I just want to be with my friends and able to communicate with them freely and happily in almost any topic.

Many of the times,  I just love to do things the way they are, and not changing it, but due to certain circumstances, I will have no choice but to go against myself.

I have a friend in school, he is one of the representative for the Singapore athletes for martial arts (Wu Shu).
He is quite a chubby guy actually, and also a person who can just cheer anyone up with his lameness, but he can be quite annoying in some cases. Well, something happened today and I felt very sorry for him. Though it was nothing disastrous, but placing myself in his shoe, I would feel very sad if I am the one.

Today, as he and my other best friend were accompanying me to the bus stop, we were actually planning to take the bus back home together. During our way to the bus stop, he would never fail to annoy me or my other best friend, and there was no exception today. He used his finger to poke my stomach, or used his palm to smack our back continuously till we got very irritated with him, but he did not stop though, he would just laugh away cheekily.

As we were walking there, he checked the time of his watch and found out that he was running out of time for his training, so he requested us to accompany him to take the cab with him, while giving us a free ride as well. At this time, my other best friend saw an opportunity of escaping away from him, he smiled and rejected his offer. He insisted of accompanying him. As we arrived at the bus stop, he hailed a cab and begged us to accompany him. But due to his irritating actions, we were afraid that he would do something even more irritating to us, as a result we just waved to him and said bye.

During that time as he stepped into the cab, I saw his face expression changed, not angry though, it was kind of like a sad expression with a mixture of some confusion of having a friend who betray our relationship. A few second later, the cab drove him off as soon as he closed the door. On the same second when the cab drove off, I felt hurt and sympathetic towards him, as I had experienced the same thing during my secondary one, that feeling was utter sadness, a feeling that is painful indescribable.

I was confused with my action for not considering about his feeling. Maybe he thought that I could not even do him a favor at all even after being a friend for 3 years...